Well that’s it!
Really, is this it, I’m 65!
What else is left but to get ready to die?
Mind you when I was in my early twenties I decided that if I survived to 37 then I would have done well. When I reached 37 I had a mid life-crisis, I became a very unpleasant person to be around; somewhat like a petulant child in an adult skin. The family survived me and I probably became a better person.
To be of pensionable age and know that I’m not ready for the scrap heap is a good place to be. I had a greeting from my Dad, he and Mum living in Canada are now 87 and still enjoying life. In terms of longevity I have many more years to look forward to.
Like my Dad I now don’t Have To Go Out To Work, I choose to. Notice that subtle difference “choose,” I like that. The perspective changes from “need to.” to “want to.”
Ok so I should not seem to be boastful but the whole perspective of life begins to change and I have not come to terms with it, yet!
The prospect of my potential declining abilities makes me want to focus more on what I can do and learn how to do them even better. I now have more time to write, read, learn about and teach the things I love most. Where does that place me?
It builds in an element of freedom that I have never had since being a child but now I have a different outlook and greater knowledge and experience.
Where is my energy going to focus? I love teaching, developing creativity and working at teaching individuals how to help themselves with more effective thinking processes using NLP. Of course there is all the Anxiety Help that I have been developing for over 16 years. Then there is the Toys work plus creativity that I have developed with children from the age of 4 and beyond plus the work that I developed with their teachers.
I really believe that I have a great deal to offer.
Over these next few days I aim to balance my internal conflicts and begin a plan for my new liberated life.
Watch this space, as they say…………..